Is This The End?

Sadly, after this blog tonight, I will not continue updating it.
Life is such a journey, and this blog kept track of a small portion of MY JOURNEY.
Records kept such as these are so exciting.
To look back and remember how you felt that one day, or what you were thinking or passionate about at that point in time.
The specific details.
Life.
Writing is an amazaing thing, and I am glad we have it.


I am going to leave you with a Haiku:

Experience Life
Do take it for what it is
A gift from Heaven

The Speech

"Let's see here. I can't speak a foreign language, so that's out. And I certainly can't quote J.F.K. now, can I, Ryan? You know, it's funny. I have this whole speech prepared... and I've been practicing for weeks, but you know what? I'm just gonna go with it. Moral fiber. So what is moral fiber? I mean, it's funny. I used to think it was always telling the truth, doing good deeds... you know, basically being a fucking Boy Scout. But lately I've been seeing it differently. Now I think that moral fiber is about finding that one thing you really care about. That one special thing that means more to you than anything else in the world. And when you find her, you fight for her. You risk it all. You put her in front of everything... your future, your life... all of it. And maybe the stuff you do to help her isn't so clean. You know what? It doesn't matter. Because in your heart, you know... that the juice is worth the squeeze. That's what moral fiber's all about."- Girl Next Door

This speech comes from the movie Girl Next Door. This is one of my favorite movies. Probably mostly because of this speech. This is something I truly see and believe.

This next part is a conversation I had with a friend. I think it applies...

Me: Your friends sound extremely lame... who wouldn't want to go trick or treating?? Do you go to parties... or drink?? You are definitley insanely cool if you trick or treat, its not immaturity... its living life and having fun and doing what you want. Trust me, I know this. I don't think sitting around, following all of the rules, growing up, and falling into line with the rest of the world is fun. i dont know though thats just me. Like people who follow all of the rules, whats the point if your aren't having fun?? You end up dying eventually and you didn't do anything for yourself but everything for everyone else. Just take risks. I dont even know if that makes sense to you, and I really dont know why im freaking out, it just makes me sad when I meet people like that

Erasure of some sort.

BOISE STATE UNIVERSITY FIGHT SONG
FIGHT BRONCOS, CELEBRATE THE ORANGE AND BLUE,
BOISE, WE'LL STAND UP AND CHEER FOR B-S-U!!!
FIGHT FOR DISTINCTION AND OUR ALMA MATER,
BRAVELY DEFENDING B-S-U!
FIGHT ON COURAGEOUSLY FOR BOISE STATE!
SUCCESS AND HONOR MAKE HER GREAT (B-S-U)!
B0ISE'S PROUD TRADITION, HEADS UP COMPETITION,
GLORY FOR B-S-U
GO ORANGE! GO-BIG BLUE!
FIGHT! FIGHT! B-S-U!!!

S A V I NG
F R E E THE ON E D UE,
WE'LL STAND UP FOR
OUR MATE.
BRAVELY DEFENDING
ON E IS
AN HONOR. GREAT
TRADITION, S UP COMPETITION,
GLORY
O ANGEL!

Wasted Life.

It's 2:45 the baby takes his 1st breath
the mother never knew he only had a few left
and the father gets a call in the middle of the night
his breath gets short and his chest gets tight
But he's 16 and he's driving too fast
takes a turn to the left, it'd be his last
your body knows what happens if he turns to the right
your body in the car wouldn't die that night
But he's 32 and invicible
the cancer that he had it was visceral
he never saw it coming but he had it's own luck
sick in the morning and dead in the night

We're all so
We're on the line
We're woah
We're wasted, no no no
We're wasted
We're wasted, no no no
We're all wasted

He's 7 years old, got his bat in his hand
hes looking for his father and he doesn't understand'
cuz dad is too busy he's got some dues on the way
his son sits alone while the children play
And he's 18 he couldn't wait to move out
his parents want to know what the rush is about
he never bothered with his dreams only thinking of theirs
wonder's why he doesn't call why he doesn't care
But he's 32 and invicible
everything he is based on principle
he never had a truly happy moment on his life
he didn't want the kids and he didn't want his wife

We're wasted, no no no
We're all wasted
We're wasted, no no no
We're all wasted
We're wasted
We're wasted
We're all wasted, no no no
We're all wasted

23 now, got his life in his hands
he's looking around and he doesn't understand'
cuz life's too busy, things get in the way
we all feel alone every single day
18 couldn't wait to move out
it's been five years and now he's starting to doubt
weather all my dreams are just aimless deaths
looking at the selfless that isn't there
then i'm 32 and i'll be miserable
everything around based on principle
i had a clue, wouldn't it be nice
to never be alone in this wasting life

We're wasted, no no no
We're all wasted
We're wasted, no no no
We're all wasted
We're wasted
We're all wasted
We're wasted, no no
We're all wasted

These are the lyrics to a song called "Wasted" by Cartel. This song represents an important point. It tries to portray that often times lives are wasted. You are supposed to cherish life, because it is a gift. You are supposed to live life to the fullest and not hold back one bit; because if you do, at the end of it, you feel like you have wasted--Wasted time, wasted value, wasted in general. This song makes me sad, because I can relate; as I'm sure a lot of people can. People have family problems and behavior problems that can cause a life to be wasted. Wasted may be a strong word to describe a life, but it's the truth. You are presented with three different examples of when a life was wasted in this song, and it really paints a picture.

Halloween.

Tonight is Halloween. A holiday that is celebrated all over the place. I absolutely love this holiday. The smells, the costumes, the pumpkins, the movies, and the CANDY!! It is so exciting as a child to know that its HALLOWEEN. You get to be something different than you are every other day and you get to go out and get more candy than is possible to be eaten. As you grow up, your friends slowly grow out of the stage and choose not to go out anymore. One by one you notice your friends dwindling away and they no longer participate in the holiday. It's hard for me to understand why people wouldn't want to take one day out of the year to be anything you want... ANYTHING!! It doesn't make sense to me that people wouldn't want to take a night out of their lives and have fun. I don't want to grow up, I don't want to be boring, or lose the joy in holidays such as these. Why would you ever want to fall into line with the rest of society, or not celebrate something just because it's not "cool" anymore. Personally, I hope that I never become one of these people. I want to live life, and act how I want to act; I don't care if I'm different. I hope that I'm different!! I am going to go celebrate halloween now, and live it up, because right now is my time to do whatever I want... because pretty soon... eventually I WILL have to grow up.